Today the words of the Apostle Paul are running through my mind.
“I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.” That’s the New Living Translation of Romans 7:15 , but it could just as well be from the Dawn Tolbert Book on Health and Wellness.
I’m pretty sure I mentioned that I’ve been on a new eating and exercise plan thanks to a talk with my doctor. And I’ve been doing great, having lost more than 10 pounds already.
Doing great, that is, until I decided that I deserved a meal off. It was a celebration, and I justified eating bread and a cupcake and well, you get the idea. In fairness to myself, I will add that for my entree I opted for the skinny salmon with spinach and roasted tomatoes so I could have been much worse. All in all it was just a hiccup — until the next day when I opted not to walk and to have another cheat meal. And the next day when I also opted not to walk.
Again. You get the picture.
The not-walking stems from binging on TV rather than food, but either way it’s combined into a three-day slide from where I want to be. And this morning I woke up feeling blue and thoroughly put out with myself. And then the negativity started pouring in.
But I’ve told it to stop. I’m human, and that’s okay. By piling on mentally, I’m just making it harder on myself. And who needs that kind of stress?
So, I’m just going to rest soundly in the knowledge that God’s mercies are new every morning and that each day is a clean slate. Today I’ve been focusing on making good choices and that includes giving myself a break.