Dawn Tolbert

Writer
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Bravery Faith Reflections

Believing in God-sized Dreams

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Our women’s Bible study group is working through Rick Warren’s study “Daring Faith.” During our last session, one of the questions raised was whether or not we have God-sized dreams.

As I thought back on the lesson, I couldn’t help but reflect on my writing journey. I’ve felt a call lately to begin working on a project. I’ve mapped out an idea of where to start in my head, but actually bringing myself to sit in this chair and put my fingers on this keyboard have felt more than I could do.

Seems silly, I know, but my writing mind has felt literally paralyzed.

The reason? My old friend: Fear.

Oh, no, not that again! Won’t she ever learn! Maybe you’re too kind to think those words — or at least to speak them, but the inner voice in my brain sure isn’t!

I got up, not super-early, but still Saturday-early this morning with the idea that I would come in here and just write. But after my Bible reading and prayer time, I discovered that the Solitaire game on my iPhone had become amazingly important. The simplicity of that game helped abate the bubbles of fear that come with opening a new document and staring at that blank page.

As I sit here now, I feel silly at the fear. It’s only writing. It’s merely a first draft. No one need ever see it.

But more importantly, if the task is from God (and I believe it is), He has promised to be with me. My Bible reading this morning included a couple of chapters in I Chronicles. King David is giving his son Solomon instructions on building the temple. I tweeted a paraphrase of his instruction: “Be strong and courageous and do the work for the Lord is with you.” I’m prayerfully claiming that promise and ready to click over into that new document.

I wondered, though, if some of you might be struggling with a similar fear to move forward and might need the encouragement that God has spoken into my heart this morning. For that encouragement, I’ve turned to the Word of God.

2 Timothy 1:7 tells us that God hasn’t given us the spirit of fear. Instead He gives a spirit “of power, and of love, and of self control.”

Over and over again, scriptures are recorded that tell us to not be afraid because He is with us.

And Ephesians 3:20 offers praise “to Him who is able to do immeasureably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.”

So, today, I share my heart with a prayer that it will encourage someone. And now, it’s time for me to do the work.

I end with one final prayer, from Psalm 19:14: “May the words of my mouth (and fingers) and the meditations of my heart, be pleasing to You, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.”

2 Comment

  1. Thank you, friend, for sharing your heart. I needed these words today. I am in a season of fear and lack of trust at the moment. I always think it’s interesting how, intellectually, I know exactly what to do and can claim all of God’s promises to see me through, yet my heart still fails me. Never doubt how important your blog is. You are doing God’s work.

    1. Thanks, Nancy! That’s exactly where I struggle — moving from knowing these things intellectually to a point where I believe enough to move forward. That’s the faith part. I think about it like moving from believing the chair will hold me to actually sitting down in the chair and letting it hold me. I’m so thankful God is completely reliable and completely strong and completely willing to hold me up.

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