Dawn Tolbert

Writer
Bravery Faith Reflections Writing

Writer in Hiding

Most of the time when we are blocked in an area of our life, it is because we feel safer that way.

I ran across that quote today in a book called The Artist’s Way. I was shocked by how clearly I could see the truth in those words, taste the fear they hinted at.

I’ve written a lot about fear and how putting words to page can seem an epic battle.

I’m quite good at avoidance. I often think I put the PRO in procrastinate.

Oh, sure, I call it busyness, pressing work schedules, commitments at church, time with family, chores that need doing.

My list of distractions seems to grow by the day.

Until I have a whole week off. Alone. Just me and that computer in the back room, the one that’s just waiting on me to want to write to suddenly need important updates.

Can I tell you a secret? I’m stuck on what to do next with the drafts of my two books. I’ve prayed and I’ve read books designed to help (including the one referenced above!) but I’ve also avoided.

I’ve become a writer in hiding.

Because I’m not sure of the next step or the one after that and I’m really scared of the ones way down the road.

What if? What if? What if?

My brain works overtime telling me the dangers that might be ahead. I learned recently through a personality assessment that my type is highly susceptible to fear.

As if I didn’t know that already.

As if I needed reminding.

But I do need reminding.

Not of my tendency to fear, but instead of the truth that God calls me to not fear.

Scripture is clear.

Do not be afraid.

Fear not

I need to remind myself daily, maybe even hourly or minute by minute.

I have a choice, and I choose to believe God. To know that He is with me and gives me His strength.

I pray my favorite verse from Psalm 19: “May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart (and fingers) be pleasing to You, O Lord, My Rock and My Redeemer.”

And I offer these small words in the hope they encourage someone else’s heart. Maybe your fear isn’t tied to writing words. But maybe you have a fear that has you hiding, and you need to be reminded–like I do so often–of the promises of God who loves us and calls us to be active parts of His plan.

Fear not, dear friend.

Fear not.

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